CrimsonCries..

2011-11-20T16:45:00.003+08:00

Ordinary?, no. i really don't think so. i'have never felt a love this true.

its a common destiny. We were meant to be

Like a perfect scene from a movie screen, we're a dream come true

Suited perfectly, For eternity, Me and you

Everyday, I need you even more and the night time too.

There's no way I could ever let you go even if I wanted to.

Everyday I live, Try my best to give, All I have to you

Thank the stars above, That we share this love, Me and you

Nur Sabrina, I love you more than there are words to tell you, I love you truly and purely. You’re the only one I want and the only one I need. I’d do anything for you, you need just say the word and I’ll move mountains. You’re the only one I’ve ever loved and the only one I ever want to. Everything about you takes my breath away, you are beautiful inside and out. I’ve opened myself to you completely, I’ve held nothing back, everything I have and am, I give to you. I trust you with my life and my heart. The only thing I want is the best for you. I will do whatever it takes to make this work. I will always respect you. I will always protect, comfort, and cherish you. I want to share your laughter and your tears. I will make you soup when you are sick, I will rub your shoulders when you are tired, I will buy you ice cream when you are sad. I will kiss you first thing in the morning, I’ll sing to you, and I’ll surprise you with flowers. I’ll lay still and play with your hair as you fall asleep on my shoulder. I’ll never blame you for anything, and I’ll always be on your side. You are the most important thing in the world to me, every decision I make involves you. I’m head over heels, I love you and I always will.

2011-03-08T04:16:00.003+08:00

mi amor,

maybe one day, you'd read this. i want you to know that i'm so lucky just to have met you.

meeting you was fate, being your friend was a choice but falling in love with you was beyond my control.. those were your words and i will forever hold on to them. i'll leave you with this. :)

Life’s expectations have gotten to high,
There are no tears left for me to cry.
The pressure has pushed me to the ground,
Tested my limits, kicked me around.
What have I done to get myself here?
Where will I be this time next year?
What does the future hold for a person like me?
Can I really live up to all I can be?
I’ve made my mistakes and have hardened my heart,
I’ve let people in that have torn me apart.
So what’s left of the shattered pieces of me?
What’s left of the boy locked up without a key?
What’s left is a boy with a heart that’s been bruised,
A soul that’s been exposed, a love that’s been used.
So don’t tell me in time I’ll get over this pain,
Don’t tell me that in this life I have something to gain.
Because the way I see it this world is full of lies.
I don’t have a problem with the “I love you’s” I just don’t wanna stick around for the goodbye’s.

*For hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend... for filling my life with joy and loving me without end.. i love you, mi amor. Jet'aime

2011-03-06T23:53:00.002+08:00

here we go again.

i must say i'm shocked from what happened. not that i don't like it but i just don't know what to think after it happened. speechless? i guess more to shocked.

i'm really sorry.. i can't continue. i have to end here. goodnight blog. i'm just glad i still have you.

2011-03-05T01:41:00.003+08:00

i'm starting anew. not a new life but just a new beginning for my blog. i want to let out my feelings somewhere and i know very well that people won't have the time to visit my blog. this seems like the best place.

i've always loved to write but i'm just not good at it. people try and there's always an A for effort.

it's the 5th of march. as insignificant as it may look, it signifies another day you're not by my side.

as much as i miss you right now, i can't do anything to stop you from going. you were always the light to my darkness and now that you're gone, i feel lost with no direction. if only i could see past this eclipse, look at the brighter future with a glimpse, no procrastination but hope that someday, it'll be with you. i hope you do see one day, that i'll always be here for you no matter what. and the love that i give, is the utmost sincere, as long as i live. Times have been tough and things have gone wrong but you've been my longing for, all along. as i sit here mesmerized by your beauty from the reflections of your portraits i hang on the walls, i start to bring back all the memories just like every single night. please, tell me you'd understand me cause i don't myself.

for your love is the only cure to this disease.

tears run down my cheeks as those memories come and fade. you were always there but you no longer will. for problems come and go. and we, have to face them. i will stay strong, and be your knight in shining armor, mi amor.

* I love you not as something private and personal, which is my own, but as something universal and worthy of love which I have found.

2010-07-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

nothing much happened today. i did three things today ; missed you, missed you and missed you.

you said you wouldn't go

2010-07-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

Dear Mi Amor

I love you. I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you. please feel better. i really miss the old you. the cheerful one.

Love Always,

Danial

*I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go. I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day

2010-07-10T19:06:00.002+08:00

first thing i gotta say before i continue with this update. Wow!! i feel like this is the start of something new. a new me. and for my blog. a new update after what seems like a year. wait, it is a year.. hmph. anyway, here goes. i'm not really good at updating blogs. hmm, let's see..

i'm dissapointed in myself. so much has happened. i'm heartbroken. i've lost someone i treasure and love the most.(not one of my family members). so many things has happened. i fell in love, showered my love. and then, i lost it all.i don't have the mood to update actually. but just because i pity my blog cause it's like so so empty.

to that someone:

dear someone,

you've pretty much the reason i've been a better person all these while. i would like to thank you for always being there for me,through my ups and downs,never ever failing to make me smile. always cheering me up when i needed you the most. i'm really sorry i haven't been there for you when you needed me. i promise i'll be here if you need me.*pinky swears.

thank you for being a great girlfriend and now, a great friend, love. you know, if things don't work out, i'll still be here. i'll be here through your ups and downs. i really mean it when i say i will wait for you. if you ever hear any rumour about me and other people, just remember, i love you and only you. you've pretty much been the sweetest girl ever. always cheering me up and encouraging me to believe in fairytales. any guy would be lucky enough to have you.

you've really changed my perspective on hope and faith.you've made me the happiest guy in the whole entire world. you never fail to make me laugh and smile.(i know i'm repeating this) if we still don't end up together, i'll be happy for who you're with because i trust you to make him feel special and happy like how you made me. i'm really sorry i made you feel like giving up on me at times. i love you always. i love you still. always have, always will.

with lots of love.

danial

*“Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will.”

2009-07-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

i don't know why i feel this way.
sometimes i fell like it's no use anymore..
as if whatever i do won't matter anymore.
i don't want to feel this way. i really don't want to.
i promised myself to not give up and i'm making sure i won't break the promise i made to myself.
i would not give up cause i believe miracles could happen if i persevere..

2009-07-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

so, liverpool won.....
looking back at it, i didn't think liverpool played at their level's best.
singapore was just lucky.. eventhough they lost... 5-0 somemore...

urghh, school tomorrow.. i hate waking up in the morning and dragging myself out of bed and taking the cold showers.
plus, i have to help mr.chiew tmrw after school for the inter-house thingy.
i hate becoming the referee! firstly, the players blame you when they lose.
they even show their attitude in the field.. i think i'll be able to pull through..

so.. yeah i miss you right now.. i always have this feeling but sometimes i wonder if it's really true..
then when i think things through, i know deep inside i really do miss you and at that moment,
i wished you were there with me. and if every moment was spent with you by my side,
i'd be the happiest guy in the whole entire world. right now, i think i'm already the world's happiest guy because i met someone
who has been there to make me smile when i'm at my all-time low..
that someone is you.

tell me why it seems we're drifting apart...

2009-07-24T22:44:00.003+08:00

i think there's something wrong with my acc or is it blogger.

anyway, i don't know why i'm never the one you confide your problems with. sometimes i feel left out.

maybe i'm just not that person anymore.

i don't know..please tell me..

2009-07-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder why i make things more difficult than how it already is.
i don't know how others make it look so easy. azri showed me today.
somehow it made me realise that i don't have to be afraid anymore.
i know it's going to be hard but i'm willing to try once more.

have to meet mr.chiew tmrw after prayers for a filming thingy. it's about soccer....
played soccer after student leader meeting just now...
going for street soccer sessions again tomorrow after meeting mr.chiew and on the weekends...
soccer training on sunday with sengkang..
basically, my life revolves around soccer...
but when it comes to you i'd make time...

somehow i felt that time travelled really slow today.. i actually thought it was almost time to go home during the third period in school today. yeas! only the third period. i find it hard to believe... maybe what some people say is true- Time goes by a lot slower, when you miss the one you love..

*There are times whenI cant decide whether to see you or not,I want to see you because I miss youbut there are times when I dont want to see you because everytime I do,the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ...

2009-07-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

i can't believe it's sunday tomorrow. i can't believe time is travelling so fast. i can't believe i still have to finish malay compo by tomorrow.. how i hate homeworks....
my week was full of soccer. it was street soccer all the way and soccer training tomorrow. and after that, street soccer again. i won't be surprised if i fall asleep in class on monday.
with the hectic schedule, i'm sure i'm going to feel lethargic on monday and that means
i'll have to drag myself out of bed in the morning.
why can't school start at 10 in the morning and end at 12 in the afternoon eh?? life would be so much better.

*you make me realise how bad times in life just don't matter cause i've got you by my side :)

2009-07-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling down and i'm tired of trying but with no results.
i just don't know why it's always like this. i'm just tired of always trying.
i need rest. school has been fine lately. nothing much.
i just appreciate my friends for always encouraging even when it seemed impossible at times.
right now i just need to rest my mind. i really need to think things true.
*even a second spent with that special person would mean so much.

2009-06-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

i know it's been like ages since i last updated. but what can i do. i've just been too busy..
holidays wasn't fun at all except for the soccer trainings. h1n1 sucks. school started and i wasn't even ready.

i don't even know what i want to update anymore. i just need a good rest rigt now to clear my mind.

2009-05-28T18:37:00.003+08:00

i'm trying my best right now.
trying to be honest with myself.
trying to tell myself that i am actually trying.
i never want to be just the 'good friend' in your life.
i've tried. but i just can't bring myself.

yet again, i'm afraid. afraid to lose you.
and yea i miss you.. so much. eventhough i see you almost everyday.
i want to be strong. being capable of taking that phone and just calling you.
i just want to hear your voice on the other end of the line.
i need to wake up. i can't do it. i've tried.

my mind tells me to give up,
but my heart won't let me.
i love you. i really do. i feel guilty for always making you wait.
i'm sorry.

*A boy love this girl but the girl didn't mind. One day the boy got sick and was about to die. Then the girl asked, "Why are you leaving me?" then the boy answered, "so I can be your angel and love you forever"

2009-05-10T17:28:00.002+08:00

i totally hate exams.

they just add to the stress.

i guess it's just study study study for now.

i'm off.

Zoooooooo00mmm!!

2009-04-12T20:30:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to do anymore.

everything i do seems wrong somehow.

i have a fear of losing you.

i don't want to lose something so precious in my life.

something that means so much to me.

2009-04-09T23:41:00.003+08:00

i think i'm a monster or a ghost or anything that may be freaky in some way cause whenever i wanna talk to some girls(i said some) they either try to avoid me or it seems that they're running away.

idk what to do anymore cause i'm really trying but sometimes i see things which i know i must understand and i try to but deep inside it still hurts.

i miss you.

2009-04-02T20:28:00.003+08:00

i like this video.

today has been the same as any other day. nothing much.

i really miss you. i really miss the times when it used to feel that i'd always have you in my life. sometimes i feel its no use anymore. i just wanna give up but i can't cause you mean so much to me.And i never want to lose you. but every step i take just seems useless. i just miss the times when everything was so easy and perfect.I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go. I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day.every night i think of you and i dream of you. and if dreams were called dreams because of the sad fact that it'll never come true then i guess things have to stay that way.but tonight i'll dream of you and wish it'll come true one day. even then,there are times I want to get mad, there are times I want to give you up, there are times I want to cry but no matter how many times I think of this, I always end up saying: I love you very much.

2009-03-31T19:26:00.002+08:00

today wasn't really that fun. i think oral today really sucked cause mdm che tom kept commenting on my answers. i hope she'd be kind enough to go easy on the marks. i think i was really lucky not to fail mother tongue cause faiz and all were like failing and i think i'd be dissapointed if i did. enough about all the tests.

i went for the toukball thingy just now. it was super fun! it was really a rtandom decision cause we were waiting fo the others after the oral and decided to head for the hall and bang! we were playing toukball. other than that. today was sucky. i think i slept for quite alot of lessons today. okay maybe just two cause i managed to stay awake during social studies. yeay for me.

*i'll wait for the postage due to deliver my heart to you.

2009-03-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

Sports Day Tomorrow!!

i'm feeling quite lethargic as of right now. i'm really not sure why. i hate exam weeks as of last week. i'm never in the mood when it comes to exams. i don't think many people are. i'm really tired and if i'm to follow my heart, i wouldn't be running tomorrow.

oh yeah, attire check on tuesday. urgh, i hate hair checks. really really hate them.

i miss soccer!! And i missed training this morning. tournaments every month starting from next month. it's going to get really busy. i gotta start hitting the gym again. like seriously.

*on a lighter note, i miss someone. like really much. i've been missing too many chances to talk to that someone. i always want to, but i always end up speechless when she's there. i really appreciate you waiting for me. i hate making you wait for so long. sorry.

ILOVEYOU

2009-03-10T20:41:00.003+08:00

I miss you-not sure why.
i want to talk you- but its just hard and i know i'll be able to do it soon
i want to call you- same reason as the previous.
you're all i think about at night- it's true
i see you in my sleep movie(dream)-i don't want to wake up.
but i wake up because i would see you at school-that makes me smile all the time.
iloveyou-with all my heart.
you take the space in my heart- it's small and only fits one special person.

*at the touch of love,everyone becomes a poet :)
-plato

2009-03-09T20:30:00.002+08:00

while the holidays are coming closer, the stress never fails to get closer too. how can i not be stressed out when the CAs are after the holidays and i have so many things to do during the holidays. somebody help me to calm down.

on a lighter note,i've been feeling much better because there's less soccer trainings. my life has been pretty much the same.

i think i'm missing too many chances. sometimes i feel like calling you but i would rather not cause i wouldn't know what to say. one day, i'd overcome my fears because it would be worth it when i finally get to talk to you.

*If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to, no one with which to share the beauty of the stars, to laugh with, to touch, what would be your purpose in life? It is other life, it is love, which gives your life meaning. This is harmony. We must discover the joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.
-mitsugi saotome

2009-03-01T18:43:00.003+08:00

at last. danial is updating his blog again. i had made the decision to stop blogging for awhile but i just couldn't staw away for too long.

nothing much is happening in my life as for now. it's pretty much the same thing. my life pretty hectic though. it's ben soccer soccer soccer. no rest. not even on weekends. and tests were filling up the schedule. sometimes i just wish i could get a break from all the hustle and bustle and go to somewhere faraway where there's no worries and just let every worry out of my mind and appreciate life just the way i love it.

and for someone, please cheer up. i know it's really hard on you but take things slowly. i don't like seeing you sad not even anybody.

oh i found this video on youtube. i find it really meaningful.

2009-02-14T20:17:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to fear running long distances after what i went through just now. the whole world seemed to shut down and at that moment, i knew everything i want in life. and at that time, i knew i needed you the most. for you, i'd do anything. for you, i'd run a thousand miles. for you, i'd be there in every step you take. but there's one thing i promise you i won't do for you.. and that's giving you up. i love you. happy valentines day.

And to all of those i forgot to wish a happy valentines day, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!.

something strange happened after mass run today at the street soccer court and under the void deck. not going in to details for that.

enjoy the weekends!!

2009-02-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

the soccer tournament is starting tomorrow. as of right now, i'm still tied up with all the homeworkS and its already coming close to midnight. my eyes are killing me but i still have to do the homework.

school isn't as great as i pictured it. there's still ample time for us to bond as a class and it's never too late to start. you might also say i'm not loving school as much as i used to in the past.

my life is pretty much the same. not so much things going on but it's pretty hectic i must say. i haven't gotten proper sleep since friday as i only got to sleep after4.30 a.m. today morning and i had to get up at 6 to get ready for soccer training. i'm still pissed of at mr chiew for mixing up my jersey. i've asked him umpteen times for my jersey number to be *5* and he merely gave me *7*. i'm really not in the mood right now to talk about it. i'll update when i'm free in this week.

*you aren't asuming that i miss you. in fact i miss you alot. i just wish things could be like how it used to be.

although i did not get my lucky number, i still got the good luck from you and it's more than enough to make me do my best cause i know it's worth it :-) .

2009-01-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling really tired right now and the only reason why i'm updating this blog is because i have nothing else to do at home other than feeling dreadful. i've got to admit life hasn't been really great like how it used to feel. the fact that i have a flu isn't helping at all. even then, school is starting tomorrow and the 50 artworks are still left undone.

school hasn't been great either. although i'm getting used to all the teases and stuffs, i still can't picture it going on till graduation. the boys really need to learn to grow up. for god's sake, we're turning 15!. even then, nothing beats the feeling i get when it's her you tease. although i keep quiet, i feel bad somehow. i'm really starting to miss those times when eveything felt perfect.like so much.

i really need some rest and time right now to let things cool down. i need to be the guy whom i used to be. i need to be strong.

*it really hurts me when i see you disheartened. i never wanted to see you sad and i still don't want to. if you're reading this, i still want to reassure you that i'd always be there when you need me most and when you're at your all-time low. all this because you still mean so much to me.

2009-01-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

i'm not having the best time of my life neither am i happy. i just don't feel like the person whom i used to be.i really miss the times when it felt perfect.there's just an empty feeling in my heart. although i know why it feels this way, it's just a matter of time until i clear my mind. for now, i really need some rest.

proper update soon enough.

2009-01-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

sometimes i miss the times when everything seemed perfect. now, all those perfect things start to fade away.sometimes, i feel i don't want to continue trying my best just to achieve something i always wanted. the feelings of giving up comes so suddenly. sometimes it feels as though it's just one sided. and i really miss those times when it seemed so perfect, when i knew you would be there for me and that i could reassure you that i'd be here too.

They say that you have to give up things in life to achieve things you always wanted to achieve.

one thing is for sure though. i'd never give you up. you mean so much to me. now, all those sweet memories seem like a dream. a dream to remember.

*it's always painful to dream with a broken heart. the most painful part is still the waking up.

2009-01-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

school was just like any other day. not much happened. soccer was after school. it's no wonder i'm so tired at school this few weeks. my schedule is packed with soccer. i get to rest only when i sleep and on tuesdays.

after all the training i've been through, you bet i won't let it to be wasted just like that. i'm sure the school team would go far this time round. no doubt.

i'm gonna buck up on my studies, be a better soccer player and be a better person. i'm doing all this for myself. no other specific reason.

oh, last of all... i want to have more confidence in myself. i really need that.

gah, missed my favourite show... i'm off now to finish some homework and sleep.

that's the only rest i get.

2009-01-06T19:03:00.003+08:00

i know its been really long since i last updated my blog. okay, really long. i know i've said this before but i'm really busy with soccer and stuff. oh, especially since school just started and the tournaments are drawing near.

schools been alright and socer pretty tiring. honestly, i wasn't looking forward to school this year as much as i used to last year. don't ask me why cause i have no idea whatsoever to why it's that way.

oh, mr. chiew got us to finalise our jersey numbers and i'm happy with mine. really happy.

*i miss you and i don't know why. i know its awkward cause we're in the same class and it takes time to get used to. i miss you because we've never talk. i fell in love with your smile ever since i first saw it. now, i think i'm in love with it more than how i used to. no matter what, promise me you'll be happy for the rest of your life cause whenever i see you sad, a part of me withers. i'm not writing this cause i want to make my blog more interesting but its because i really mean it. i promise i'd be happy for you in every decision you make if it means you'll be happy. i'd try my best to make it work this time. ily and i mean it.

2008-12-05T22:03:00.004+08:00

love can just be unfair sometimes. it leaves one hurt and dissapointed. it makes one shed tears. all because of love. don't mind what people say, just believe in your heart and go for it. love hurts but it hurts more knowing you never tried. it breaks one's heart but knowing you never tried breaks your heart even more. Go for it.

sometimes, it's just a phonecall away but it just seems so hard. when you know all you need is her, you'll know that all of that is worth it. and the smallest thing she does makes you smile. that's when you have to go for it. don't keep her waiting. let her know how much she means. cause when you said you love her, you meant forever.

*i said i love you, i swear i still do.

2008-12-03T21:18:00.002+08:00

i can't help to check my phone for your msg-es every time i get hold of it. i know i haven't made much of the relationship but trust me i am trying. i wake up every morning thinking of what to msg you just because i don't have the guts to carry that phone and dial your number to wish you "good morning". trust me, i'd do that every morning if i have to. To keep the sweetest smile on your face.
The holidays aren't helping at all. although i know that feelings change as time goes by, i know mine won't. my feelings haven't change since the first time i told you how i felt. even if things don't turn out as i picture it would, i would be happy for you and for who you're with.

it's coming to twelve month and i'm really sorry it's that long. i'm really sorry, sincerely.
trust me that i'd do anything to make it work. i still care like how i used to 10 months ago.

*even if we don't end up together, i'd be here to pick you up when you're down and always be with you, in every step you take.

2008-11-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

i don't really know what to say right now cause my holidays are so boring.

i got to hand it to you guys who think long holidays without activities are really relaxing.
i'm not the type who stays at home and do nothing. even when i'm at home, i don't think sitting around is my kind of thing. dozing off would be.

alright, the soccer match against st.patricks is tomorrow and i'm not looking forward to it. geez, i feel like having an ice-cream right now.

*the stars shine for you tonight.

2008-11-21T19:07:00.003+08:00

lots of hard work and not giving up, miracles may happen. i'm gonna learn that song. there's no denying the facts i'm trying really hard.

alright...today was spent with soccer,soccer,soccer oh, and swiming too. plus,eat,eat,eat and sleep,sleep,sleep and hence, here i am. how interesting was that. okay that's utter nonsense but very understandable. i'm really tired,tired,tired. my legs are killing me. plus, there's the uncle's engagement on saturday followed by wedding on sunday. help me survive this...

i'm gonna get myself a long well, deserved rest. after i tidy up my room that is. its not literally untidy, it just needs some vacuuming and mopping. after all that is done, i'm off to rest..

*i'd serenade for you, i'd shine for you . you know i miss you.

2008-11-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

hello people =). i may not know what to update right now but i'll try my best.

okay...i think i'm addicted to doughnuts right now and i can't seem to stop. i have to thank the soccer trainings i'm having cause they're like the only exercise i get. i won't be surprised if my tummy gets a little out of shape. omg i don't want that.

oh, i'm seriously gonna learn the prettiest friend by jason mraz on my acoustic guitar. i haven't been learning new songs on it and i need to use it right away. it's been standing there in my living room on its stand and i hardly use it. i have been using my dad's classical guitar though. it sounds better cause most of the songs i learnt required(did i spell that correctly?) plucking.

life has been pretty alright and i have nothing much to complaint about. all of us should learn to appreciate our lives. i'm not much of a somebody but i actually think all of us should really appreciate what we have now and not complaint on what we don't have. if we really want something then perseverance is the key. life has its downs but when there is a pitfall in life, i'm sure there's the ups in life. having the right perspective on life and not giving up, miracles would happen. i'm sure of it.

i'm gonna stop here or you might find me too naive in believing all those things. but hey, that's the way i am. like it or not.

*eh, i miss you much. ily.

2008-11-19T19:30:00.003+08:00

i don't know what to do anymore. sometimes the feeling of giving up comes to you naturally. but i'm proud to know that i won't. and as simple as it sounds, i'm gonna go for it cause nothing else matters anymore. you mean so much to me, and i really want you to know that. i know even if it doesn't work out the way i want it, i'd still go for it. i promise you that.

i've never felt so sure that i want something. trust me in this, i know i'm sure this time. i won't give up so easily and even if the sky falls on me, i'll be sure to use it as a blanket.i won't let this relationship fall apart. but all i need is time. i won't force you to wait anymore.

i know miracles will happen if we believe in ourselves and have hope. i won't let you wait for me for so long. i'm really sorry if waiting for me is never-ending. trust me this once. i'm gonna make something out of this relationship.

* i miss you. i'll keep on trying till' it works cause i have faith in myself. let me shine for you cause nothing else matters. iloveyou =)

2008-10-31T21:28:00.002+08:00

i'm going to update cause someone said i was too lazy to update.
okay, where do i start,
AAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! omg omg. freak out!!. phew.
how would i know i was suppose to take art. on the second hand,Dnt is much harder plus i did worse for DnT than my art. sheessh.

alright, i really don't know what to say now. i'll give a proper update most probably on monday or during the weekends.

2008-10-28T18:41:00.002+08:00

i'm slowly starting to update like how i used to. i guess it's what i do when i get bored staring into the blank computer screen. probably the best place to let my feelings out. i'm really anxious for the class allocation thingy this friday.

tomorrow is the treetop walk at macritchie and pizzas after that, so it's gonna turn out fun indeed. soccer practice is after that. i'm gonna take it real slow as i'm really not sure whether the ligament tear is alright although it's slowly healing.

the holidays are really a bore. i don't have anything to do other than flipping through channels or using the comp to pass by time. i'm really glad that after my finger heals, it's going to be soccer,soccer,soccer all the way through the holidays.

ohkaey, Hsm3 was really touching especially when it's our third year at school and it's two more years from now before we graduate and go our separate ways. well, it makes alot of sense for us. i'm really gonna miss all the times i spent with 2e2. all the heartaches and that we suffered together as a class and there would always be the reasons that we come up with to reassure the teacher that we are actually very reasonable. and to believe that it took the school 8 teachers who so called 'resigned' from teaching our class english in 2007. i'm really thankful to all my classmates who were there during all my ups and downs and who cheered me up when i was at my all-time low. aww, i love you guys. p/s.(as friends eh. nth more). :-)

and to that special someone, i'm really starting to miss you. we'll hope that time wont straint our relationship. imy lah. =)

*take my hand, we'll go to the place where i'll always be there for you and where you know ily. lovestruck.

2008-10-27T21:16:00.002+08:00

changed the skin and song as you can see.

ohmygodlah. my thumb is swelling up due to the ligament tear which is so not cool. i'm having a treetopwalk which i guess i'm gonna enjoy and soccer training later on which i'm gonna attend if the thumb doesn't create any problems.

i'm starting to be more of a mummy's boy ever since the ligament tear cause mum would be there to massage my hand whenever i complaint of pain. i guess i'm loving it. the hardest part is still sleeping at night where i have to make sure i don't end up sleeping on my arm which will make me scream like a girl in the middle of the night.

okaey enough of that. school is oficially over. and holidays are in eventhough i'm packed with soccer schedule. but i'm enjoying it cause... well, it's my hobby. the class allocation thing is on friday and i'm a little anxious to find out which class i'm gonna spend in till graduation after the
o' levels. holidays are so not cool.
luckily for me, soccer is going to occupy the whole thing. so yeay for me!!!

2008-10-21T20:44:00.002+08:00

okaey. it's been like forever since the last time i updated. i was really busy with the exams and all the stress. i'm happy to say all of it is over. okaey not exactly over as there's still the matching exercise thingy.

school has been really hectic with all the checking of scripts which i did not attend for a reason which i should not mention here. and then i had to choose whether to go for the pesta raya thingy or the movies with najib and the others to catch HSM3. well, i decided that we would go for the pesta raya thingy first as cikgu marini needed my help backstage and then we would go to the movies after the pesta raya thingy. okay enough of that.

i really think it's time for me to get rid of all the stress. at least after i get to talk to someone. which i really want to talk to. at which seems almost impossible when i can't utter a single word in front of her.

eh, i really miss you. tell me you're willing to wait. i won't mind if you don't cause you've made me the happiest boy in the whole entire world and it was you who made me laugh and smile when i was down. i really thank you for that. you were the one who made me believe in hope and faith. thank you again.

* take me to the place where i could still remember dreaming and where you love me .
i heart *A*

2008-09-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

i wasn't sleeping for god's sake. i was really tired eh.

Btw, happy 9th month to me and you =). gosh its really been long but short. i mean it has been long but it feels so short. and to the horror there still isn't any talking between us. that is the reason why i miss you everyday eventhough i see you in school almost everyday. don't ask me why cause i don't know but everytime i get to see you, a part of me feels secured cause for that moment i know you are safe and i hope you are happy. i never want to make you cry unless it s tears of joy.
School was spent really studying. i mean i really have to buck up.no more enjoying till the exams are over. ohmygodlah, next week is continual assesment and its like so fast. don't get all surprised if you see me studying really hard cause i don't want to let anybody down especially my parents and that someone.

*you can take my word that i'll be there with you in every step you take.

share your problems with me.

2008-09-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

it's really been ages since i updated i know. i've been really busy. hey, here i am.

school just started and you could say it was ouhkaey.

i really want to show you i really care.i really like you and i want this to work. sometimes i really feel like giving up cause i just can't seem to talk when there is you.i've really been dumb and i feel i've let you down. talking to you really seems hard for me. and i just read your blog. you know you can share your problems with me. i'd be there for you if you need me. i don't care anymore. people can think whatever they want about me.i really am confused right now. whenever you feel upset or when there's something troubling you, a part of me feels uneasy. i should have been there for you whenever you needed someone. i'd help you in anyway i can. for now, i really feel confused. i don't want this relationship to fall down the drain. p/s. i really miss you.

*there are words waiting to come out but it always seems that the words get tangled up in lines when i see you.

2008-08-29T22:41:00.003+08:00

i gotta admit today was actually great other than the obvious thing that i'm starting to miss you and the holidays have not even started. i'm kind of sure the fasting month won't make me weak cause i know when i really miss you, i won't eat that much so literally, i won't get too hungry. at least i hope i won't give up, i've gone through this before and i shouldn't worry. the june holidays were much much longer.

the progress report wasn't that bad. its hard to believe that i got more than a couple of As which was satisfying. you see, if i really try hard, i can actually do it. Oh, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!. i really have to hand it to the teachers, they have been the one who sacrificed their time to make sure we showed our true potential.they were the ones who gave us the moral support when we needed it the most. they were the ones who would help us discover our true potential. for once i realise how much they mean to me. imagine where we would stand today if it weren't for them. Mdm Faridah, eventhough i always get bored when you give all those lectures when we have lessons, i actually listen to them. i won't dissapoint you. i Thank You very much for what you have done for me and the class. Thank you and a happy teachers day to you :-).
- the boy who always sang in class(danial)

i miss you pretty much and the holidays are just starting. promise me you'd message me if you want to talk to somebody or just anything. oh, we(me,feroz and friends) were thinking of having a study group during the holidays. i just realised what the teacher said was true, "study hard now, after the exams you can relax and do what you want to,for now,study really hard okay,i want all of you to be in the top three class next year" the last part wasn't really necessary though. Soccer Tomorrow!! p/s i want to talk to you, it'll be awkward. i don't mind staggering talking to you.

*nobody gets me like you, can we bring yesterday back around? cause i know how i feel about you now.

2008-08-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

i am just so tired from today's swimming test that if you ask me to go to the shop near my house, i would faint halfway there. today turned out really okaey actually. other than being teased by the few same people, everything else was fine.

you make my days interesting and i wouldn't want to imagine what it would be like if you weren't there for me. you have been the best thing that has happened to me. you have been there for me when i wasn't feeling happy. in fact you made me the happiest person at times.you are the person i look forward to seeing everyday. the september holidays are going to be hard for me especially when i'm going to miss you badly. but you should really make the best out of the holidays as its the only break we get before the exams which are drawing near. you know if one day, you end up liking someone else, i'd still be there for you when you need someone to talk to or listen to all your problems, i'll be there to give you a hand and you will still be the special someone in my life. i love you and words can't describe it. you have the sweetest smile and you are the sweetest person ever!

you know i'll give my everything to make it work. i love you.

*your name was engraved on my heart and forever would it stay there. iloveyou.

2008-08-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

life isn't how you want it to be sometimes. people you once knew tend to change maybe for the better. sometimes life takes a path where you determine how it turns out. there are vulnerable situations in life and i know that these are times when letting go really is the hardest. in life, there will be that special someone who brighten up our dull days and make it bright. they are the ones who make our day simply being themselves. Sometimes they make us feel special. and it's really painful to love someone and know that they would never feel the same towards you. Sometimes waiting for that someone is really like waiting for snow to fall here but please don't give up cause i know i won't. And for you, i'd do anything cause in the end i'd know that everything's worth it.

You know, sometimes when i message you and i know i really have nothing else to say, i crack my brains just thinking of what to tell or ask you next. for a moment i would hesitate cause i really don't want to irritate you with all my ramblings. oh, you know i'll be here for you to listen to all your ramblings and problems of any sort. i just wonder what it would be like to be just talk to you and not feel awkward and share secrets and not feel butterflies in the stomach.

right now there's just a mountain between us. and i feel its up to me to make the move to at least talk to you. and when that day finally comes, you'll know that i'd be the happiest and proudest boy in the whole entire globe. you are the girl i talk about in my dreams the girl who takes my breath away. you are my fairytale and i know if faith is what i have, the fairytale would come true. i really miss you.

*when you look into the night sky, you'll find that the stars are gone cause i took them to shine for you, *10*

2008-08-22T18:08:00.003+08:00

you know some times when you feel you're trying your hardest and the hardest part is just accepting the fact that at some time, it just won't work. That, only happens to people who don't have faith i suppose. You know that you can achieve something if you really try. the problem lies in you. its your choice to give up or to go on trying. there really isn't any harm trying. sometimes you just have to let out your feelings and show that person that she really means alot to you.
Love doesn't happen as planned. it develops unexpectedly. you may hate that someone for now but you never know how that someone may feel about you. things may turnout unexpectedly. believe in faith like you believe in fairytales. Dreams come true once in a while. and when it does come true, don't let it go to waste. use every moment of it , love it. My dream was you , A.

* You're all that i hope i'd find in every single way.

2008-08-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

after all this while i can still remember the first time i started to send her messages. it is just memories now but i'm really sure it will live on. there really isn't much to talk about.

so like every other monday i was like so lazy to get out of bed but hey, i got out eventually and there was early bird today. eventhough i came early, i did not feel like going so i stayed at class.
i must say i missed the chance to see her in the morning cause i think she went for early bird. 1 period of D&T was spent doing the test which i so did not study for. i did not even know there was a test for D&T. and the rest of the day was actually okaey. wasn't that bad actually.

i have to admit i miss her because i did not even msg her and i only got to see her during mt which i don't get to see her so often cause i only get a glimpse of her and ya that's probably it. i can never go on a day without thinking of her for once and seriously i'm not lying.

*i miss you , alot more than you think.

2008-08-17T18:05:00.002+08:00

i'll do a proper update when there's something to talk about.

*right now i miss you and you know it.

2008-08-16T19:41:00.002+08:00

alot of things has happened since my birthday.you could say i was too lazy to sign in to blogger to update but here i am now. i really don't know why i have mood swings these few days. at one minute i'm happy and i'll be bored and tired the next. i don't even know why i get so jealous so easily these few days.

i get jealous of couples cause they feel so happy with the ones they love and i know at some point of time breakups do happen but if both party is understanding nothing goes wrong right?.
fairytales do happen to some. i admit i do get jealous at the slightest things. it's probably best if i keep the reason to myself cause i don't want to start up a controversy.

so we went to the gift carnival just now and it was actually fun looking at them trying their hardest in the sun trying to break the world record. oh, the games was fun too other than some problems which we faced. everything else was okay, sort of. so we got the medal and yeah that was it. we(me and shah) then went somewhere to meet someone(not her f.y.i.. don't get so cheeky eh) oh, in the process we actually met alot of people. and we went to alot of places.

all you need to know now is that when you miss me i'll be missing you more and when you love me i'll be loving you more. i know you know but i just want to reassure you=) my singing isn't that bad eh. worst of the worst, it'll only start raining for you to cry in so the others won't see your tears =)

i miss you.

2008-08-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

at some point of time i just feel that it won't work eventhough i'm trying my hardest to make it happen. i really want us to pull through but it just seems that one of us is unwilling. it may seem really easy to some of you but it's a billion times harder for me especially when my friends keep teasing her and i feel so bad about it. at this point i really miss you and you ought to know that.

sometimes people should think why they tease others. especially when they don't have someone who makes them smile when they don't even feel like it.someone may have heard this before=)
these few days hasn't been the best for me. i don't know why but i just feel so vulnerable sometimes even like giving up cause i can't even utter a single word in front of her and i don't know if she wants me to.

all i can do now is hope that tomorrow might be better. oh, i'm not so excited for tomorrow cause of the bash thingy. geez, don't go hard especially when its right after a soccer match. i might break a nerve!!=)

*let the proof of love be trust. i miss you badly.

2008-08-03T16:21:00.004+08:00

words were never meant to make you cry. you don't have to try to show you are sweet it really comes to you naturally.i'll try my best never to make you cry.i'll crack my brains to keep the conversation going.even though it's hard for us to talk face to face, i'll make you smile in text messages and messenger. sometimes it may not make you smile but i know i've tried. i love your smile. it keeps me going on when everything is down. i know it's wrong and strange when you've forgotten how to smile. when you're down and lost and you need a helping hand, you know i'm here.i want to make you feel special. have faith.believe in love.it changes lives. oh,be strong in overcoming lives obstacles. people you love will always be there in your heart. just believe. fairytale endings do happen to some people. all you need is to have faith and believe.- i miss you

i'm going out with family later for dinner..
oh, i just cannot deny the feeling that i really miss you. i'm waiting patiently for tomorrow so i can see you=)

*even at times when i see you. i miss you cause i see you smile and it's not for me and i long to hear your voice.

2008-08-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

*Yours is the voice I want hear when night steals the day The only one I want with me when stars come out to play I beg the moon to watch over you while you’re far away And send a little message that together we’ll be one day.

today was seriously not what i thought it would be. it was totally a day for slacking. even during uniformed group. which i totally like. and there's soccer tournament tomorrow. we are seriously going to bring back a trophy or medal on monday.. i'll bring it for you=)

i miss that someone. eh, i dunno why but i get a funny feeling whenever i miss her. i can't actually describe the feeling. all i know is i miss her.. alot

*together with the stars i'll shine for you.=)

2008-07-31T20:35:00.001+08:00

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know."

i really miss you eventhough we see each other almost everyday.

2008-07-30T21:47:00.002+08:00

i'm really tired and my legs are seriusly in pain.i dun noe why but it seems these few days at school seem to end fast. And again its going to be friday.uniformed group. i really have injury on my leg.
Like as if they are going to believe me.

there is the australian maths competition thing tomorrow. AH, i just found out i have to represent ncdcc in the marching contingent for ndp. geez, i have alot of thngs to attend to. there's going to be soccer tomorrow and i can't go so i'll just have to go for the meeting.there's the tournament this saturday.we got fourth once and we're going to get something better this time.

i'm starting to miss the strong-sweet and prettygirl again eventhough i see her almost everyday.
went for swimming just now and took a bus to school after swimming for floorball inter-house.don't even ask me about the results.i only played for less than a minute.if only i noticed the message earlier. after the floorball thing we borrowed a soccer ball from mr.muscle man(chew or chiew)i'm not so sure. we played soccer from 4 plus until like 6 o'clock. dats when we decided everybody was tired and went home.

*Every time I say 'how are you?' my heart says 'I care for you.'. Everytime I ask 'how have you been?' my heart whispers 'I miss you'

2008-07-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

spent the whole of weekends with bear(danial),mutalif and some of the others. like any other weekends it was filled with laughter and of course..soccer..soccer.soccer.

No wonder i'm getting so exhausted in school. but i know i'll still try my best at school=)see,i'm a good boy. oh, the early bird thing is back again and i don't have to go=) i somehow pity those who hav to go cause che tom is there..

i'm saving up money for i dunno what but i'm going to use it for something i want. and i don't have to ask my parents for the bucks.(again i'm a good son).

you know sometimes when you feel you hav all the courage but you get stuck when you see her..
and when there are butterflies in your stomach.you tend to do stupid things you should not have.

i think i've said my piece.i'm going to sleep cause i don't want to end up sleeping in class tomorrow.

*i miss you terribly strong-sweet girl :)

tell me you feel the same way

2008-07-23T21:54:00.002+08:00

I wish you'd give me some kind of sign that you feel the same. Anything really, just something to let me know I should still hold on to the idea of us. As it is, as much as I don't want to, I'm close to letting go.and i know i won't. i'll say hi but its hard and for you i'll try. you make me smile when i don't want to and laugh when there's no reason to. i'm seriusly tired and worn out..

not because of waiting for you but because of the soccer matches i'm having. juz so you know,i'll be here and forever even if it does not seem to work and when your heart is accepted by someone else. you are the reason i continue playing in matches even when i'm so exhausted and when i think of you i know it's worth it.

*I always wonder what you are thinking when you look at me and smile. Hell, I always wonder what you are thinking when you look at me at all.

2008-07-21T19:43:00.002+08:00

i seriusly wanted to wear green today but turned out to be red and friends were just teasing about us.. eh, come on, don't tell me there's no such thing as a coincidence..and you guys would not want to know how great the day had been..from all the laughters to the teachers not coming to school and argumentative surveys on potato chips which was so cool ;)

after school we went to the cafeteria near 201 where it was raining and we had hot drinks and i ate like a plate of fried rice and 2 pratas..and boy am i full..i don't think i'll be eating dinner tonight..after that we went to sit down under raudhah's block where we made alot of noise singing like crazy people..

guess what, i did something i never did for a long time..played catching.. hah and we were laughing the whole time cause at first syafiq bumped into a wall and i was laughing my socks off and when i was the catcher mutalif fell down...i mean it was so fun!

i think i'm getting stomach cramps because of the laughters..and i seriusly think laughing is a great exercise coz i'm getting tired from all the laughing =).Sometimes its great to get all crazy and just let all ur problems and worries out. Oh, and sorry when mutalif said my name to you outside the teacher's office.. But i saw u smiling..hah =)

there's the history field trip tomorrow and i don't know what to bring..i haven't done a single homework since the last week and i really need to catch up on the assignments and homeworks.

i'm sleeping at school as i'm really tired as i hardly had sleep for the past three days. And to worsen things there's a funny feeling in my heart as though i miss someone..
it makes me feel so vulnerable in making the wrong decisions..i really don't want to regret my actions..show me the way t your heart..

*i can live without you but without you i'd be miserable....tell me something i don't know.

2008-07-15T19:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes when i'm feeling down..you keep me hanging on..i have to be thankful to you for making my days so interesting =).i really appreciate you for being so understanding.

i love everything about you and i want you to know that..you were so kind =) it was so nice of you to track down the months we've known each other..i'll always remember that and you have to know if this doesn't work out, i'll always be here waiting for you and you are special in so many ways.

school was great in all so many ways. got to escape soccer practice as mr. ow yong needed help on carrying gym mats from springfield and punggol sec. back here...so.i'm exhausted..

*wait for me.you're everything that i want in every single way.

2008-07-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

things are just so hard now..i'm feeling alot more tensed then i expected..i do wanna make the first move but everybody doesn't know how hard it is for me..furthermore there are tests coming up and i have to juggle all these problems i'm facing..i feel sick..my body just feels so weak..i'm trying my best..i even wrote my first letter..

homeworks are piling up..ugh..i hate homeworks..alot of people are expecting me to make the first move..and i want to but the pressure is on me..i don't want to lose someone special like her.

i really need to talk to my sister=) at least she understands that the whole pressure on me
i'll make the first move..i assure you that..wait for me will ya?

*i'm not good with words and i don't know how to make the first move..but for you i'll try =)

a thousand miles away..

2008-07-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

you know sometimes when you feel that someone is occupying a space inside your heart and you want it to stay dat way...you know that at some time you feel that it's crucial.

you feel as though that someone is gonna leave you forever leaving that space.

but you know that you can do something to make it all alright..well enuf of dat..so this week has been ouhk..well i was sick on wednesday after the swim and did not turn up for school on thursday..some people may have been happy..ad its like mdm ng did not come to school on dat da and there was 4 free periods...

i kind of wanna talk to her but all seems so hard..

*it juz seems so hard

2008-06-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling alot better..yup..as you can see changed the skin..but it wasn't easy..there was no headers and alot of parts were missing..i seriusly can't wait for wednesday..like its swimming!!

alot of things happened and for the best..soccer matches were great.especially when you score...

i've been getting real thirsty nowadays andi'm not sure why..some ppl(coughs)juz dun wan to let their feelings out eventhough the person is just in front of them..

so,technically today was great..juz hoping tomorrow would be better..

*your heart beats the song of my heart..

2008-06-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

hah..hello..juz on the comp juz now and here i am..seriusly i'm trying my best right now..juz not good enough..its the weekends and i still have time to gather all the courage...i'm thinking of changing my blogskin..we'll seee if i hav time to...if only she's online in msn..i can at least give her a hint i'm gonna ask her the surprising question=)..i don't want her to freak out when i ask her..and that would just mean total embarassment...hah...wednesdays are swimming day...so fun..

we'll see..whatever happens next...nobody knows..so tomorrow bear's planning on having soccer practice and we'll hav the match on sunday..so i guess that's all..

*who's ghost boy and who is anon*

2008-06-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

i'm really sorry..not being able to update for a long time...maybe i'm juz too tired or juz no mood to log in to blogger..so sorry..

school had started like how many days ago and i still don't feel the rush or liking for school "YET"

i'm juz going to pass time by and at least there's HER..been missing her so badly during the holidays..i'm really regretting my actions..i want to tell her how i feel for her..but its juz so hard...
i really like her..its juz so hard to tell her..and i'm afraid she would not accept me for who i am..
i fell so vulnerable now..i have to make the first move if i want this to pull through..

right now i juz feel so fragile...hey i also have feelings okay...she looks so cute in her pics...

i'm still gathering all the courage to tell her for right now..and my stupid phone doesn't seemed to work...aarrrgggh..i can't even msg her...so the only option now is to tell her personally...

i'll have to put all my fears aside..and i really want this relationship to work...

*you keep me moving on in life and my heart is where it belongs...with you*

2008-05-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

hah! it's been some time hasn't it..i mean since i last updated..i've been so busy lately..and the last week of school was horendous..

and when i finally got to see her..i was damn nervous as it was during morning assembly..and i was like beside ***....

and ****..t.t. sec.2 camp is coming..so stressed about it..got no camp list..

and with the help of some friends..i finally got a rough sketch of the camp list..at last i'll get to see her..and for those whom hav been trying to contact me via my handphone..ouh so sorry..but my phone is in critical condition...it can't seem to work!!!

ouhkaey...seriously can't wait for the sec.2 camp but i'll have to leave camp on the third as i hav to attend SANA course on the 4th..like wth i noe...i'm gonna miss me too..kaey..joking..

today has been a bad start for my holidays..family is planning on holiday..

siish....like last minute travel plans..dunno if i wanna go..may be a ride on th star cruise or somethin,..at least that's what my mum says..well..if my handphone's not going..i'm not either..

FULLSTOP..

2008-05-12T19:46:00.001+08:00

you haven't updated..

and again i can't help myself to checkin your blog everytime i on the comp..
hope you like the present..its kind of lame though..anyway..exams are over but i seriusly think that paper2 is hard..i don't know for what reason some say that the paper was easier than paper 1 whereas to me it wasn't..

the other papers were okaey..compared to the others..maths paper2 is the most worklaod for me..whereas second is science..which took me 2 hours to finish and only 15 mins to rest...

i'll update when there's time..and..k..who are you?

still thinking of the tyme i was suppose to give it to you personaly..

2008-05-11T12:39:00.000+08:00

you know you make me nervous..i've always thought about it and i don't want to give up..
you never fail to make me smile when i'm down..when i think nothing else is important anymore..i look for you to make me feel better..

i really need to think things through..nowadays i feel useless..exams are a problem..and i dunno why but i've been scribbling your name on my table ever since i felt that way towards you..

maybe it's because i feel happy when you reply my text messages because for a moment i noe i crossed your mind..

i'm still trying hard to win your heart and i know its not easy..

happy birthday to you..

2008-05-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

today was tiring...so thirsty..thank god we have water at home or i would be dehydrating already..

juz now was okaey..mt paper was fine..juz a few question which was hard..wat is berbalah...can somebody define it for me..after the paper went to macdonald's wif frens..ate then went to tampines mall..after that to open plaza where they made me ride the so-called merry' go round..which almost made me puke after all the milo and macdonald's stuff..

After that 'sembahyang'...tyhen go najib's block play soccer..gada and frens sorry i did not come..my mum asked me to be home early..so had to go home..can't meet up wif you guys..

went home and straight away read her blog and checked if she was online..after reading her blog..maybe there's no more chance for me..not at all...so..here i am thinking what should i do next but don't worry..the present..i'll give it to you on monday okaey..juz hope you like carebear.

do you?..

2008-05-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

had science juz now..
actually if u learn enuf points..nothing seems hard..
stayed back and played soccer near mutalif's house...
and gadafi and frens..thx for making me laugh when i thought nothing else was important anymore..

i'm juz tired of waiting..i juz wanna speak to you..gonna giv you dat birthdae present..and let's
juz hope i'll gather enough courage to talk to you..and even giv it to you personally..

for now...let's juz hope the exams are easy..coz tomorrow's MATHS paper!!

2008-05-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes life juz isn't how u want it to be..all those things you thought would be good for you are juz dreams and imaginations..maybe for some of you life may turn out to be wonderful..with the person you love..everything is juz great..i don't think wat is happening to my life now is wat i want in life..all of us have ambitions..some may want to be doctors..lawyers..even rockstars..i have my own dream..but that dream can wait until i'm older...for me..i'm juz so bored of waiting for you...every time i get home i on the comp and read ur blog..i don't think i even exist anymore..i juz wanna move on but my heart says no..i'll be there whenever you need me..i'll be chasing my dream from now..but no matter wat happens..i''ll still be waiting for you no matter what..

2008-04-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

you know sometimes when u feel you've lost someone but deep inside you know they're still there..you know that no matter what happens..you'll still be faithful to that one person..it may be someone you like or even a close one..but that someone had taken your heart and left it with him\her..now as you sit alone..you think what you've done all these time just to make her notice you and you do all kinds of silly things..and you know something..sometimes when you chase a dream for a girl especially someone beautiful..you may miss someone like an angel right before your eyes..and best friends would turn out to be the ones you rely on..i'm just saying..sometimes life can turn out to have great fairytale endings lijke the ones you dream of when you were small..think about it..

2008-04-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

SICK!!!
arggh..the blocked nose and sore throat is killing me..
had to finished syafiq's strepsils sioll..

she hadn't come to school juz now..coz of flu..
kesian...on monday her sister had to fetch her from school..

another thing....
why don't you check out submission's new blog...

www.grafzcrew.blogspot.com

another dae...

2008-04-17T19:58:00.000+08:00

stayed back yesterday and went to meet up with feroz and shahrul near my old school..

today went to afiq's grandfather's house..we did alot of things..and did a blog for our so called 'GRAFFITI' group..nowadays my life seemed so fun yet empty..

i don't even noe wat to type in this posts..mayb in the next post i may put something great...

*my life feels so empty without you*

2008-04-13T18:13:00.000+08:00

For you,
I would gladly walk a mile,
if that would give me a chance
to see you smile.
I'd call you my friend,
but that's a lie.
You mean more to me,
but I can't explain why.
For you are more precious to me
than all of the world's gold,
but I can't tell you that,
how can I be that bold?
If I spoke what's on my mind,
would you accept me?Because without you,
I don't know where I'd be.
You seem to be calm,
while I feel absolutely lost.
I would like to be so bold,
but what would its failure cost?
Am I the only one faced with this choice?
Be daring and risk losing you as a friend too?
I can't risk that; I'd rather have that then lose everything.
What should I do?

*without you..my world seems empty..get well soon ok!*

PHototaking sessions...

2008-04-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

school was juz like any other day..after school was supposed to have match with ping yi..then after warm up..it started to rain..then thunder so the match was postponed..AGAIN!!..when inside the shelter one ping yi guy purposely hit me with his shoulder..so i accidentaly scolded him vulgar..heheh..but then had to go back to school..at school we had to go for photo taking..saw her..aww soo cute laa when she smiled..after art club was our turn..after the formal..we had fun shot..me and cameron did a gay pose..so..went home after we had alot of fun at school for those who noe wat we did..then gud laa..hehehs...so went home after that...

*ur smile was like a star only i could see..shining through every moment flawlessly*

2008-03-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

head says it'll never happen..heart says go for it..mind says..both..wth..i have alot of things to finish this weekend..syafiq ajak gi escape..the day i have to go to nenek house.that day got soccer but had to go for the smoking thingy first..saw her wif nazura...after the thing straight away went to soccer.during soccer looked if she passed by the field..did not saw her so thought she had to stay back.read her post juz now..i agree wif the last part though...we should juz be friends first and then see what happens.wouldn't it be awkward if we became an item eventhough we've never spoken to each other..be friends and see what happens..maybe one day it would work out..

*my dream came true..and that dream was you*

Better Days..

2008-03-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

it's been sometime since i uploaded a photo..i hate to take photos and i'm not photogenic.so i'm trying to overcome this problem now..i miss talking to her..ouh yarh..since when did i ever talk to her..maybe in msn and friendster.how i wish the person she meant in her blog entry is me..wouldn't that be surprising..woah..i got to sit beside her for two times oredi and never even said hi..stupid me..well...i juz hope she knows how i feel towards her..

*ever since i met you..my eyes were set upon you..only you would make my day..i'm falling heads over heels wif you*

you take my breath away girl..

2008-03-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

you noe i like you..and i dunno if u feel the same way..every moment spent wif you is a moment i treasure forever..i don't want to close my eyes..i don't want to fall asleep because i miss you so and i don't wanna let you go..because even when i dream of you..the sweetest dream would never do i'd still miss you..i noe dat sometimes life isn't the way you want it to turn out to be..but for every star in this universe..i can find something great about you to match it with..you told me i was danny phantom..and you dunno dis but you will always be prettygirl in my heart..i don't want our frienship to fall down the drain..so..plzz promise me you'll be a great friend aiiitez..

*you take away my breath girl..LOVE is universal*

...()...()...

2008-03-14T19:08:00.000+08:00

today was an ordinary day..a day like every other..nothing much happened really..i'm juz always thinking of her..i noe i shouldn't be..i dunno if i ever crossed her mind..all i noe is she should never stop smiling..coz' i fell in love wif her smile ever since i first saw it..there was dis time when i was matching stars with everything i liked about her..everything was doin fine when i ran out of stars..and i noe if i was to hold a star for everything great about her..i would be holding the shining night sky.

*u shud never stop smiling as i fell in love wif dat particular smile ever since i saw it..*

The bOmb...Yo..

2008-03-13T20:26:00.000+08:00

today was great laa..first thing in the morning woke up late seii..den went to soccer training.training damn chialat..at least a little better then yesterday..den last minute today,coach said got geylang united training..of course i didn't go seii..tired who wanna go.after soccer went home.shahdan followed..my mum asked us to go buy food..then we went..after dat met hakim den we went to afiq's house but he wasn't at home..went to the nearby pasar mlm near afiq's house..shahdan followed.got bored and we decided to go tamp mall.at tamp mall we talked alot..looked at soccer boots and all laa.today went home straight away took bath..den on the comp..first thing i did was check her blog for updates..i think i noe who danny phantom..(chey..terase seii budak tuu)lol..den now i'm updating blog..chatted wif many ppl ..think i better go..nitez..

*th3 stars are lighting up the sky for u tonight girl..i asked them to..if only danny phantom which u meant was me..*

here he CoMES..

2008-03-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

what's happening right now really irks me..i always see her walking by my class but never says hi..i noe my friends always disturb her..but seems as though she likes it..she gets irritated when they say my name..i noe she hates me..well i think so.i dunno how i'm gonna make it through the holidays..first,i don't get to see her..then i don't get good results..how the hell am i suppose to tell my parents i failed history!!
for wat i noe now..she hates me but i like her..alot..

you were once in my dream..but you didn't seem to notice me..real life won't be like that right??

LOVESTRUCK..

its been a while..

2008-02-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

ItS been awhile since i updated...all those days make me miss her more..soccer still tiring as before..boring..

this one turns me on!!
i wanna buy new boot se!!

missing her always..

*i noe you exist..but i don't think i exist in your so called perfect world*

MayBE i'm In ThE wRong...

2008-02-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

when everything is going wrong...and my friends have something on..you are the one i count on to be by my side..when i'm down and lost and i need a helping hand..you are still the one i count on..but to think of it..i noe u wouldn't come..all i can say is...i'll be ok..maybe i'm in the wrong never talking to you..but u don't noe how hard it is to face you..and i noe u should never stop smiling coz the first time i saw u smiling was when u passed by my class after ur recess..i fell in love wif dat smile..wishing i can see it again... if you look inside a girl's heartYou'd see how much she really criesYoull find hidden secrets, bestfriends, and liesBut what you'll see the mostIs how hard it is to stay strongwhen nothings right and everything is wrong.
Smile, so the tears won't fallLaugh, like you don't hurt at allFake it so he'll never know...That you still haven't let him go..
When are we going to be together?Will you love me now or will it take forever?I Love you always with all my heartBe with you and never apartWith this poem I have one thing in mindYou just have to read the first word in each line...
I know im not the boy of your dreams, but your the girl in mine, and its too hard to forget you when your in them all the time . ..

(*)DaNiAl(*)

Sorrow In PAin

2008-02-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

sorrow in pain???like wth..everyday i see her...likes her even more
no matter wat she thinks of me...she's like an angel to my eyes....i feel lost in my love life..feeling there's no one to pull me up and help me out of my daze..thinking she's the only one existing in my small world..she is the only star shining..i'll try my best to shine..but she never lets me..i feel dat she's ignoring me..i feel my body floating away..looking at her every now and then..wishing she was mine..all i noe is she does not see me and she does not need me..and she does not love me the way i know she could..now as i sit here in my room..all i think about is her..how will the next day be..tomorrow is a new day..

*now,as i sit here in my room and close my eyes all i think about is you*

i'll be ok..

2008-02-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

another day is going by..i'm thinking about you all the time..all i noe is i juz can't seem to talk to you..for example during mt..we had to pass our papers down..i was behind you..and u didn't even turned..it seems you're avoiding me or something..if its becoz of wat i said during our msn conversation..den,i wish u could forget everything i typed..if you want me never to exist..then go ahead..tell me in the face..i would leave you alone..never to even try..making you mine is harder den taming a wild animal..waiting for your reply is like waiting for the snow to fall here..so..juz say wat u want..all i noe is i like you..will always stay that way..

*making you mine..will that ever happen..*

nice day ahead..

2008-02-15T21:03:00.000+08:00

juz now was fun..did a lot of things..had to go to school in my ncdcc uniform..i;m sure she noticed..glad i got a valentine gift..for being a good friend..if only she knew..had to go to see the b'boys match..which i thought was okok...coz b'boys lost to an embarassing score..not sure wat the score was but i'm pretty sure greenview scored more than six while we scored nothing..cameron bought food from the nearby cofee shop while i watched and it made me hungry seii..now i'm back home..waiting for my mom to come home so we can go eat out together as a family..miss her so much..juz waiting for the right time to tell her how i feel..

*waiting for her is like waiting for the snow to fall**but no matter wat..i'll still wait*

2008-02-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

a hard day sia..

2008-02-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

today was really ok...some things were bad but some weren't..had soccer and many things laa..before soccer followed shahrul and shahdan go buy water at the nearby coffee shop..saw mr.chong and another guy..wasn't sure hu..den during training,cameron almost fell..haha..kekek seyy..me,bear and yot laughed..well..cameron also joined in the laughter..after training planned to go skate park..but we did not so i,shahdan,shahrul and mutalif took bus no. 17 home..
all that's for todae..and i think all the ones who did not turn up for soccer todae..had missed out on all the fun..=)

ToDaY's MaTCH...

2008-02-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

today was so freaking tiring lah seii..went to school to find out there was mt..yup dat was good...got to see her..and after school,went for soccer match which was damn tiring..first i was suppose this guy whose jersey no. , is the same as me..number 6..den he was subtituted wif dis skinny guy...and dat skinny guy took a chinese boy's spot..that chinese boy skill lah sia..he was damn fast too..but i still managed to defend the ball from him..we drew the match wif dem at 3-3..haizz...still missing her.u noe wat..the chinese boy tackled me and made me angry siol..but i was ok after dat..but later in the game..he fell down on his own while i was on the ball..he thinks i made him fall..well of course we did not get any foul..coz i did not make him fall..but i think he wants revenge and keeps tackling me..after the game i did not even shook hands wif him..his face looked angry..but does he think i care..wth..aniway dats the end of today..

*tomorrow will be a new day..and i hope i can make it up to u*

How BoUt nExT TImE...

2008-02-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

hey...when was the last time u fell in love huh??during mt wanted to ask her for the glue..damn i was tongue tied..could not even ask her for the glue....ouh man den tomorrow got soccer tournament...will miss the last two periods which is mt..the only time i get to see her..really want to ask her...or even talk to her..i noe she belongs to someone else...but i like her..when will my mouth juz talk to her..and i only get a glimpse of her during mt..coz..i always tend to look away as i think she's looking at me...her sweet eyes are juz so sweeeett.....maybe next time..i'll talk to her...

*even at some point of time..i feel like giving up..you are the one that keeps me going*

today was ok...

2008-02-09T19:17:00.000+08:00

Today was fine nothing interesting though...went to the barber to cut my hair..told him not to cut my fringe but he did..and guess wat..he thinks i'm from damai sec..he keeps repeating i'm from damai and says i take bus 21 in the morning like wth..he even asks me how long the bus takes to reach school..but i just said it wasn't long eventhough i've never taken 21 before..still missing her..hey and i haven't done my homework seii..gonna do it today or tomorrow..some of it i guess..the others would be copied at skool..like duh..haizz..why do i get tongue tied whemn i see her..read her blog..so lucky would i say to the guy who has her for his girl...

*eventhough i see you all the time..i wish you were mine*

2008-02-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

today was ok..nothing great really..went out wif my mom to geylang where she bought things which i don't think we needed...i mean like she buys things which we don't even use..kept thinking of her..everyday i like her more and more sia..i dun mind waiting for her even if it means till sec.4...and you noe wat..chatted wif her juz now which to me was so great but to her i think was boring coz most of the time i was the one asking questions..juz miss her so much coz i only get to see heer during 2 period lessons most of the days in school..get to sit at the desk beside her so i'm glad..other than that..i'm gud to go..juz hope tomorrow would be a better day